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Memory. 8: The back alley

10/30/2018

 
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One summer we spent part of our daylight hours scouring the back alley for clues. The clues could be just about anything. A loose brick, a mark on the cement that looked like it had been made with charcoal but might have been tar, a broken clothespin. It wasn't easy. One day we found a sheet of looseleaf paper with writing in blue ink. I don’t remember what it said. It’s possible we did the writing ourselves, though that suggests we were planting evidence, which means there was some other kid we wanted to fool. But mostly our search was genuine. We were convinced that real, actual clues were out there. How serious we were. How earnest.

Memory. 7: Not falling

10/22/2018

 
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For a while the living room floor was lava. Then it was quicksand. We made our way carefully on bare feet from one piece of furniture to the next. Our survival depended on not falling. So many people I know did this too when they were kids. The memory is particular and thrilling. The thrill is particular and unrepeatable.

Memory. 6: The open door

10/21/2018

 
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Young, attractive, an excellent secretary, my mom worked for a congressman in his local office, right in our neighborhood. One Saturday he had something he wanted done before he returned to D.C. She had to go to his summer house. She made me go with her. I didn’t want to. Why did I have to? She was adamant, unusually so. I remember a daunting place an hour's drive away - polished wood, lots of glass, high ceilings. He let us in and they worked in his study. I sat outside the room. I can still see the open door, the two of them on either side of an enormous desk, and a book in my hand, that I'd likely brought with me, but not the title. 

Memory: 5. A race no one knew about

10/14/2018

 
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Some days, driving on the Belt Parkway, we took part in a race no one knew about but me. I was in the back seat. My dad was the driver. We were always at the front of the pack and we always won. Any car that passed us, I counted as part of the race before ours. Whatever exit we took was the finish line. 

Memory: 4. A street not a highway

10/12/2018

 
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Wires under the dashboard caught on fire. We were going down a street not a highway. My father was driving. My sister and I were in the back. My mother opened her door. My father was yelling “Jump!” so I jumped. My mother grabbed my hands. I was dragged along until the car stopped. “Are you hurt?” someone said. We were in a gas station. They sold packets of antiseptic. They burned my scraped knees with them. The scabs that formed made it difficult for me to keep my legs straight when I walked. At school I wore a skirt. It took a couple of days to heal. It must have taken longer. It was bright in the gas station. I don’t know what happened to the car. I don’t know who put the fire out. It wasn’t the kind of fire that destroys a car. I don’t know if there was really a vending machine that dispensed antiseptic but I like the idea of it. It would be wall-mounted, and you’d put in your coins, and twist the chunky metal handle. Instead of a toy or candy medicine would come out.

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